Musical Moments in Morocco

There’s something to be said for the power of music to transcend language and culture and bring joy to so many people.

After another incredible three course, home cooked Moroccan meal our hosts at Kasbah Itran, on the outskirts of the Sahara Desert treated us to an impromptu performance of several Arabic and Berber tunes. Our group and the locals sang, danced, clapped, chanted and laughed ourselves silly for over an hour.

I passed a doorway in Ait Ben Haddou today with a sign that read “May Peace Prevail on Earth” (you can see it on my story).

In that hour or so where we all danced in the Kasbah, peace and joy prevailed. No one cared what each other’s race, religion or political views were. We all just smiled, clapped and wiggled our booties. It was epic.


Scenic #alwaystrynewbeers

📍Gimmelwald, Switzerland

It’s tough to say the most scenic place I’ve ever had a beer (as I tend to seek out beers on all my travels) however this place was up there.

I was travelling with 4 boys and we had been drinking and partying non stop for over a week by this stage. The beer went down like razor blades but none of us were game to admit it.

We all sipped, slowly, through our pints and let the incredible view over the mountains and villages below ease our aching heads.

Flying Mind Games 

Long haul flights force you into an intimate relationship with time.
Not forward thinking in years, or months, or even days, but the slow trickle of the immediate passing of time. 

The annoying minute by minute moments, which lock you in a battle with the thoughts that come and go (or stay) with them.

24 hours of travel.

My first long haul trip in over a year (oddly).

I typically find I get very anxious when I fly, terrified of looking at the clock and seeing less time having passed than I’d want to.

Faced with the reality of the hundreds, or thousands of minutes I have remaining alone with myself and my thoughts. Disconnected from the outside world. Alone in the feeble attempt at darkness they dim upon the cabin. Trapped in a tin box in the sky.

But this time was different.

For the first time in my adult life I flew with ease. I welcomed the minutes that lay ahead and enjoyed getting lost in my own thoughts. I watched entire movies (instead of anxiously changing them every 10 minutes). I didn’t connect to the wifi. I only got up a few times.

I could breathe and even dozed off for a few hours of (much needed) sleep.

Perhaps this is reflective of the overall shift in my mindset I’ve felt over the past twelve months. Or perhaps I’m finally beginning to develop a level of comfort, or even a positive relationship with the thought of time spent inside my own head.

Life’s quirks and qualms can take a toll on even the strongest of minds. Never stop seeking to nurture what’s inside as well as what’s out.

We all have an incredible ability to change our thoughts and feelings, no matter how dark they are.

Philosophy is ruining my life

I’m a week away from finishing my first semester of university this year.

It’s been an adventure being back studying for a second time, especially whilst juggling full time work and training/competing.

A couple of my subjects were pretty dry and got tedious towards the end, however one of my electives has genuinely blown my mind.

It’s name is “Mind and World”

A first year philosophy subject which deals with what constitutes a person, mentally and physically and our roles as these mental and physical beings in the world.

I’ve never been so captivated by something.

After spending the first half of the semester attempting to determine what exactly we (human beings) are, the final essay is on free will and determinism, which ultimately asks us to take a standpoint on what we believe regarding the two.

The old KP would have read a bunch of articles, picked some smarter people’s points he liked and used that to frame the essay for the sake of getting it done, with little or no care for what his own standpoint was.

I envy that kid.

I’m so caught up in trying to figure out where I sit on the subject I’ve relished in every opportunity I get to bring it up and discuss it amongst mates (and also haven’t started writing the damn essay yet).

Whilst everyone has enjoyed engaging in the debate to some extent, the majority of them have wanted to move on from the topic of conversation pretty quickly, as, to quote one of the “who cares anyway, doesn’t effect my life either way.” (very deterministic of him).

But even if this particular philosophical conundrum seemingly has little to no impact on the world (which I don’t agree it doesn’t) being able to discuss it should.

I believe everyone should have to study philosophy at some point in their lives, if for no other reason than to open their minds to the validity of rationally sound thoughts and ideas that challenge their own. Being able to then pay careful attention to the logical soundness of your own thoughts and opinions when attempting to respond to such challenging ideas is a valuable lesson a lot of people could benefit from learning.

My social media feeds are awash with people weighing in on their standpoints of the current state of the world, from terrorism, religion, climate change to the latest diets and workout regimes. Sure everyone is entitled to an opinion, but what a wonderful world we would live in if those opinions were formed through the pursuit of genuine knowledge on those subjects being discussed and based in logic rather than emotional responses and ignorance…

But I digress.

Free will or determinism. Man. I really don’t know…

If I side with the libertarians (free will) I’m accepting that I am open to the idea of there being something / things that exist beyond scientific explanation. A metaphysical ‘freedom’, which stems from nothing more than a feeling of freedom, which I do undoubtedly feel. But to accept the irrefutable (that is to say that though it can’t be completely scientifically proven, it can’t be disproven from existing either) metaphysical existence of free will, means I must also accept that any other irrefutable metaphysical phenomena must also exist, such as God or spirits, psychic powers and the like, which I’m not sure I’m willing to open the door to just yet

But then if I side with the hard determinists and accept that all my thoughts and actions can be reduced to physical chemical reactions taking place within my body which I have no control over as they are caused by forces which predicate them and lay beyond my control (physical events, my biological make up, society’s values etc.) then what implications does that have on my moral responsibility and what I can expect from and hold those around me responsible for?

And how can I deny the overwhelming feeling that I do indeed have some authorship over the direction of my and accept this fairly bleak standpoint on existence?

Compatiblism (or soft determinism) offers an attempt at a middle ground and with it some potential hope for compromise (can’t we all just get along?)

Compatiblism is the idea that much of the world (both internal and external) is deterministic and beyond our control, but that we as agents in possession of a mind and consciousness (whatever that is… which is another can of worms entirely I’m trying to tackle) still have some control to make choices with free will, from the determined options available as a result of those elements beyond our control (biological make up, environment etc.).

We are free, but with boundaries…

HOWEVER, a hard determinist will argue that these choices are still products of those uncontrollable electrical impulses triggered by the universe rather than some beautiful mental substance of choice we feel so strongly, which makes us free.

So what’s the answer and how do I word it so I get an HD?!?!

Philosophy is ruining my life (in an awesome way) and I’m legitimately only scraping the surface with it… It terrifies me to think about what those fully immersed in this discipline get to grapple with in their studies, works and day to day living.

I’m so stoked I got to experience this tiny and frustrating few months of it.

I’m less stoked I just spent time writing this blog post instead of my 2000 word essay on the subject.

The Light-Switch Mentality

The following essay explores one of the most profound ways I believe mindset can impact performance, using a variety of examples from my own athletic career.

I’m using myself as an example not to explain or justify my successes or failures as an athlete, but as that is the information I have immediate access to and my own mind is the only mind I can explore with complete honesty and transparency.

Though this article focuses exclusively on the concept of the “light-switch mentality” it is by no means the only mental aspect of competing needing to be trained for success and I’ll do my best to try and follow it up with some other thoughts I’ve had on the topic over the years.

I felt different competing this year at regionals. Neither bad or good. Just different.

In the days following the event, as is in my nature, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting and in the absence of a current training goal, turned my attention to the pursuit of knowledge on my favourite thing to reflect on, mindset.

The mind has fascinated me my entire life, specifically It’s potential for both greatness and destruction so I trawled databases, read articles and searched for as much information as I could consume (inbetween doing actual work I have on at the moment haha) on the subject, specifically within the context of sports performance.

I stumbled upon an article about a concept called “the light switch mentality” (link below).

The article talked about golfers on the PGA and how come Sunday (the final day of play) when the lowest ranked athlete has to take the green alone, the running joke is how fast will they play to just get the event over. This player is out of contention for the prize and probably playing poorly as is. They’re just going through the motions.

They’ve flicked the “light switch”.

The light switch mentality according to the article is “analogous with complacency or going through the motions. It usually occurs when a player is out of contention or playing poorly.”

An awareness of this switch may seem redundant to many athletes, as they believe they know when and if they’re trying to their full potential. However I think sometimes the light-switch mentality is more subtle than that.

In reflecting on my performance at regionals this year, I was stumped by some of the decisions I made in the heat of the moment, particularly when compared to how I’ve competed in the past. (note, I doubt changing what I did in these instances would have had much, if any baring on my result, that’s not what I’m saying, I’m simply noting that they were out of character and that is where my interest in highlighting them lies).

In the rope climbs I chose to chalk up between every rep to make sure of every climb – in training I had done the climbs in sets of 2 and last year didn’t chalk my hands once in the rope climb event. In the kettle bell deadlift workout I would break each of my second sets of deadlifts before the last rep / farmers carry, despite knowing that I would get to relieve my grip immediacy after and was able to do this unbroken comfortably in training, I chose to do this also, I wasn’t breaking because I couldn’t pick it up.

In the muscle up event on the round of 9 I split my reps 5/3/1, in training I went 5/4, twice. The last rep was always hard but I could do it, heck I was coming off the rings anyway I had a lot more to gain by going for the rep even if I failed it rather than choosing to stop. But stop I did. I chose to err on the side of caution (comfort even).


This is so different to how I would typically compete, why was I making these split second decisions this time around?

After reading the light switch mentality it dawned on me.

This is the first year I’ve ever gone into a competition comfortable with any outcome.

This was the first year I’ve competed with various other priorities on my mind, full time study, business, travel plans and several other projects I’m invested in, some of which arguably provide more internal value to me than the satisfaction of another Games trip.

In the past, making the Games has been EVERYTHING. There was no other option in competition.

However I wasn’t actively thinking of anything other than the task at hand whilst competing. I went out and gave my absolute all in each event and it was only in reflecting I realised I had made some really strange decisions at the time.

Also, after the drama before and during event two I was forced to make peace with the fact that something outside of my control (if I tore my pec) may ultimately decide the outcome of my campaign for a fourth CrossFit Games anyway.

And (after a brief emotional moment) I was totally cool with it. I got fired up and went at every subsequent event as hard as I could and walked away from the experience a happy man.

I think it was in that moment my “light-switch” changed.

Again – I’m not arguing that doing things differently would have affected the outcome of the weekend. I’m simply exploring a phenomenon, using myself as an example, to illustrate the way in which it could affect an athlete’s mindset (even subconsciously) in the hopes that others may learn from it.

I feel as if the light switch mentality has probably also existed when I’ve competed at the Games in the past, particularly the last year.

For me making the Games has always been enough of a victory that I’ve never approached competing there with the same desperation as regionals.

Do I think I would have won or placed in the top 10 with a different mindset?

No way in hell! However I would have probably walked away from them far less confused by my choices in the heat of the moment during many of the events.

So how can we use this idea of the light-switch mentality to improve performance?

I believe the key to a stronger, smarter mindset begins first with understanding how your mind is working. This is no easy task, as honest introspection is much harder than assessing how you perform physically. If we are poor runners, our running speed and technique is easily observable and measured objectively, by coaches, peers and ourselves. Our minds on the other hand are both subjective and exclusively our own, thus getting outside input into their nature will always be limited by our own understanding of our thoughts and our ability (and comfort) articulating those understandings to ourselves and others.

This ability to honestly reflect on your mental processes can help pinpoint potential “light-switch” triggers, both during competition and in training and keep those switches turned to where they should be to maximize success.

If you are training with the mindset that if at any point during the session you feel shitty, get tired or find yourself distracted then you can take your foot off the gas and just get through what you can, how do you think that will carry over to competition?

My training for the past six months has been littered with thoughts such as “I’ll get through what I can” and “I’ll still train but just take it easy.” Or “If there’s something on I want to go to I’ll just get through what I can before hand.”

At the time of training I was putting in as much effort as I thought I could and often that meant amazing sessions, but through honest introspection I can see that the types of thoughts I let myself think around training were light-switches being flicked long before I took the competition floor.

Knowledge is power and knowing how to sift through your mind for what thoughts are turning your switches away from success is the first step in developing a more productive and focused mindset. Once you’ve isolated some of these thoughts you can begin to figure out how to counter them. Mindfulness practices can quieten them, clear goal setting can help push through them and eliminating the things that allow these thoughts to exist can also help keep them at bay.

It’s also important to note the positive potential for this light switch mentality and the incredible mental fortitude required to capitalize on this. Being able to identify and eliminate any and all possible excuses and limitations to your success takes ruthless introspection and sacrifice. It is this kind of ruthless pursuit of one goal that separates the best in their games from the rest of us.


The original article I read / referenced can be found here: